Archive for October, 2008

healers

October 21, 2008

This will really be the last time, no more doctors for Maia. It is amazing every performance we have seen so far is different and useless. Most of the medical professionals in this dualistic global culture are trained to be the ones sitting in front of the other while facing they don’t reflect themselves or interact, they only make decisions arbitrarily based on what is called scientific knowledge and their own dealing with impersonal experience. We have become so dependent on others to understand or interpret our own bodies that we usually set for whatever we get from them, I learned the hard way but as everything in life on earth, it should be challenged! 

Everything began before Maia was born, at the hospital I learned everything that could occur with little babies the wrong way, from how they are supposed to latch to how you are supposed to react, I didn’t challenged anything back then cause I guessed everything would come out naturally, it couldn’t be that hard. Well it was hard, and I couldn’t find an answer or a clue to what was happening even though as seen from far away in time it was simple. Maia cried, and cried, she was suffering, I was suffering, one week later the doctor prescribed formula, I died, felt useless, she lost a bit more than 500 grams and was hungry. 

We combined the formula with breast at every “scheduled” feed, she gained weight but continue to cry, there was something terribly wrong, then I began to challenge. I’m so happy I never really listened to the every 3 hours rule as reading the net, la leche league, dr. sears, etc, I realized what was wrong. I join a local la leche league group and after a month Maia was exclusively eating from me. But there was still something wrong, no doctor would listen to me for 6 months, until we found dr. elena, who game me some pointers.

Food allergy? but she had no symptoms: blood in discharges or vomits, not even a skin rash. … well somehow I tried everything until it stopped, in the end I couldn’t even tell what was the right cure cause many things were happening at the same time… elimination diet, mature stomach, beginning of solid foods, massage, and last but not least the swedish probiotics coming from the milk of a peruvian indigenous woman living in the highest mountains around…

ada… is a bit lost

October 18, 2008

I have no idea where to begin, so many things to share

everything, but above all silence

that sort, whose voice struggles to find its way 

and here in front of the possibility 

is speechless again